Date: 2012-04-24 22:32 Subject: 31 Security: Public

Life has been getting really busy. Alex is growing up, he's starting to move around; luckily the apartment is baby-proof but still...i worry that I'm going to leave something out and he's gonna get into something he shouldn't. Ugh! I hate that I worry about my son so much but I can't help it. I love him so much! My life revolves around him, pretty much, and I need to start being a bit more social. It'll be good for me to hang out with my friends and make Alex less dependent on me. Mom's starting to get upset that she can't hold him without him crying out for me at some point.

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Things with Logan have been...different. He's been so busy with work lately and I just don't feel close to him, not like before. I understand that he's doing his best, but part of me does feel like he's only with me because of Alex. I love him and his family but...I don't want him to regret things. I just don't know if I could afford being a single mother; although my parents would help me out, I'd rather not hold him back from a life that he wants.

I want to talk to him about it, but I can sense his stress the moment he walks into the apartment. Maybe I'll schedule us some uninterrupted alone time soon.
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Date: 2012-03-15 20:23 Subject: 30 Security: Public

Raising a kid is hard work. Talia...good luck with your two! =P

Alex has been getting big and as much as I don't want to, I think it's time for me to get back to work. My mother has offered to watch him and I trust her but I've just grown so attached to the little guy, it'll be weird to not spend my days with him anymore.

Hunter: Do I still have a job at your place? Or has Talia completely replaced me? =P

On a side note, I'm starting to get my pre-pregnancy body back. Yay!

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Date: 2012-02-15 00:55 Subject: 29 Security: Public

Wow, it's been a bit since I last updated everyone on my glorious life. For starters, I'm not sick anymore and our baby is finally back home with us. I missed him so much...I swear that it like 2 weeks that he was gone but it felt like much longer. Now things are better! My world is back to normal and I hope that I don't get sick anymore during the season.

Although I know that today is Valentine's Day, or was, we didn't exactly do anything exciting. Logan had to work but I made us dinner and then we cuddled on the couch, watching movies. It was perfect...absolutely perfect. He makes me happy and getting to be with just him and our son made today amazing. We're one big happy family! <3

Now, time to go to bed with my fiance!

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Date: 2012-01-10 22:21 Subject: 27 Security: Public

Well, now that the holidays are over, it's definitely more calm now and things are going really well. Alex is doing extremely well and he's starting to sleep through the night, which is such a relief. I'm becoming better rested...unless Logan is in a mood...or I am ^.^

Now that Alex is getting bigger I have to start thinking about going back to work. And while I'm sure that Hunter will allow me to work at the office again, I was thinking about pursuing what I had intended to do after college, prior to finding out that I was pregnant...which is opening my own hair salon. I have the knowledge and the degree to do so...and I think now, I am going to start seeing what places are available to buy.

This is a bit of a scary prospect...but I know that I'll be fine with the support of my family, friends and fiance. =)

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Date: 2011-12-22 11:49 Subject: 26 Security: Public

And I just found out that a large group of relatives is coming to town for the holidays. Why? They want to see Alex and meet Logan. I guess it's time for the family to do the whole 'you hurt our Kam, we'll hurt you' thing. Although, I don't think any of them would ever follow through...except my sister. =P

Wow...2.5 days till Christmas. I haven't exactly had too much time to go out and do much shopping. Although, my list is really short. Just hope that people like their gifts. =\ I'm glad there are so many Christmas movies on, cause they do make me happy...and I actually have time to watch them, now that Alex has calmed himself some. I think he is fascinated by the images on the television. He just sits there and scans the screen.

It's gonna be a great Christmas.

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Date: 2011-12-06 18:41 Subject: 25 Security: Public

Alex has demanded so much attention lately. I think he's taking after his father, because he doesn't exactly cry, just prefers when someone is around to give him all the love and attention that he deserves. Luckily, my mother comes around frequently to help with this but it has been harder to put him to sleep. I think I'm losing sleep given that I can't really nap anymore during the day. The joys of being a mother.

And now it looks like another Kubel has decided to make Portage her home. I don't know how this will affect the city but a porn store is certainly something that I never thought that I'd see in this town. Leave to my fiancee's cousin to do so, haha! Portage isn't going to know what hit it...=P

Anyway, I need to get dinner started...with the help of mom. She's giving me cooking lessons. Whee!

[Private]
All this back and forth between Logan and Sam is starting to get to me. What is her problem? Why does she seem to have a problem with almost everything that he does? Clearly, it's jealousy but Logan on seems to push her buttons...and I just don't think I can ignore the way they go back and forth. It's ridiculous!
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Date: 2011-11-14 07:52 Subject: 24 Security: Public

Perhaps I should have done this earlier, like over the weekend, but I was just too distracted to make a post about it.

I'M ENGAGED!!!


I keep thinking that this is all some sort of dream...seriously, I have been soooooooo happy the last few days.

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Date: 2011-11-02 08:19 Subject: 23 - .gif party! Security: Public

I am far too tired to make any sort of real update...

So, I shall leave you with these...













And...I'm done...time to try and get some more sleep...

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Date: 2011-10-25 11:53 Subject: 22 Security: Public

Oh man, Alexander is two weeks old...and he's getting to be a handful. He wakes up a couple times a night, which isn't so bad, given that I don't have to go to work but still. I don't think I've managed to sleep through the night since we've been back from the hospital.

Although, I'm so lucky to have Logan, who sometimes manages to beat me out of bed to go tend to Alex and his needs. Seriously, how did I get so lucky? I just hope that he gets enough rest before going to teach.

His parents, and my parents, have been great. I've learned quite a bit more about my boyfriend's upbringing, especially what he was like as a baby. Apparently, Alexander looks pretty close to how Logan did when he was born, except that Logan had more hair.

Speaking of the baby, we've chosen godparents for him: Talia and Hunter McIntyre. We spoke to them at their wedding reception. Anyway, Alex has decided to take a nap...so, I will do that too.

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Date: 2011-10-11 20:46 Subject: 21 - Phone Update Security: Public

At 4:47pm, this little guy was born:
( I present... )

My father, actually, cried when he got to hold Alex for the first time. And Logan...he's never looked sexier than when he was holding onto his son. And my mother is scolding me for being on my phone...so...time to drink some water and rest some more.

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Date: 2011-10-06 23:06 Subject: 20 Security: Public

I'm about 5 weeks from my due date...this is...coming up really fast. I swear, I was just moving back to Portage the other day! Where did all the time go? The baby's room is finally complete, thanks to my parents. It looks perfect and with all the stuff people have been giving me, I'm pretty good on clothes for the baby. My parents even got some diapers...and by some, I mean a few boxes. I love them so much; and I'm glad that my father has been coming around...he had me worried for a bit...and I even talked to him about not trying to pressure my boyfriend into doing certain things.

Things seem to have settled and it's a nice feeling.

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Date: 2011-09-30 22:57 Subject: 19 - Private Security: Public

Everything's falling apart...

I've returned to my parents because I couldn't be alone anymore. I'm starting to think that I shouldn't have told Logan the truth. He's better off without me...he needs someone that's not me. I'm just messing up his life.

I think I need to get away from Portage...for a few days.

Maybe my sister will let me visit her. Yeah...that sounds like a good idea. Logan doesn't need me around, anyway.

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Date: 2011-09-30 12:00 Subject: 18 Security: Public

[Private to Logan]
I may be over-reacting but WHAT IS THIS? TMZ Article

I'm trying not to let myself get upset but with what's been going on with Sam and now this, it's getting hard to just pretend that I'm not bothered by it. Do you want to be with me? I'm sorry to ask but if you don't want to be, it's okay to say it. I don't want you to be with me if it's just an obligation to our unborn child. I want you to be happy, and if it's not with me...I'll have to accept it.
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Things were going so well, and now...I don't even know. What happened?

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Date: 2011-09-26 08:18 Subject: 17 Security: Public

I think my boyfriend's 'antics' are rubbing off on me.

Anyway, had a great time this weekend. As I promised, to him, we went to go and see "The Lion King" in 3D. Sure, we could have just watched the movie in the comfort of our home but he wanted to see it in theaters and I enjoyed it. So many kids there, clearly...and I found myself wondering what our son would be like. I soon figured out that he'd most likely be like the kids that were singing along almost the whole way. Even the the kids, poor, singing wasn't enough to take away from the movie. In fact, it was pretty cute.

I found myself crying when Mufasa died. :'( I knew it was coming but...Simba was all distraught, I couldn't help it. Anyway, it was worth the extra money for the 3D..in fact:

And I think that I need to stop, now! Before I get out of control with all these GIFs.

[Private to Logan]
Apparently, my parents are going to finish the painting in the baby's room. My father's certainly warming up to the whole idea, otherwise he wouldn't be doing helping out. So, that's making me happy!
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Date: 2011-09-22 11:11 Subject: 16 Security: Public

2 Months Left...

I may be starting to feel a bit nervous about being a mom. With the help of my family and friends, and boyfriend, I think we're prepared for him. And he's been moving around a lot lately. Seriously, it feels like this baby is going to shift around my insides before he's born.

[Private to Hunter]
I know that you've known that I'm going to be having this baby soon...but what's the policy regarding 'Maternity Leave'?

Will I still have a job?
[/Hunter]

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Date: 2011-09-07 14:04 Subject: 15 Security: Public

Since I have the time to mess around...I 'stole' this from other people.

( Lyrics by... )

Note: Them being crossed out means that someone guessed them already. ;)

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Date: 2011-09-05 15:52 Subject: 14 Security: Public

This weekend has been good. I've gotten to spend time with my family...well, I'm at their place right now for a cookout, with my amazing boyfriend. It's been great to sit down with my mother and talk about baby things...and my sister seems to be a bit jealous that I'm gonna have a kid soon, but she's happy about being an aunt.

Weird, how thing have become so...good, lately. I was thinking that I'd have to do this on my own and now I have so many great people willing to help.

I love my friends and family! <3

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Date: 2011-09-02 08:32 Subject: 13 Security: Public

Can today just go by faster?

I am somewhat excited to have dinner at my parents' place. My mother's been wanting an update on my life and the baby...and I'm sure that she's gotten me more baby stuff. At this rate, my baby is going to have a full wardrobe without me having to spend much money. Not that I'm complaining...saves me money that will later be used on diapers, I'm sure.

Also, I've reached 6 months...oh my God! In about 3 months, my son will be born. I need to give him a name...although, I'm growing attached to "Alexander Logan." That's definitely the top option at the moment. =)

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Date: 2011-08-31 19:06 Subject: 12 Security: Public

This seemed like fun!

Rules:
Bring up iTunes (or comparable media player), hit random. Quote lyrics from the first 3 songs that come up.

You left me hanging from a thread we once swung from together
I’ve lick my wounds but I can’t ever see them getting better
Something’s gotta change
Things cannot stay the same

Her hair was pressed against her face, her eyes were red with anger
Enraged by things unsaid and empty beds and bad behavior
Something’s gotta change
It must be rearranged, oh
~Goodnight, Goodnight - Maroon 5

t happened on a Sunday
Which tells me there was no mistake
A half-parted smile
You took my hand and breath away
And I wouldn't have loved you
If you would have
Answered my requesting
Someone's glad he never pleased himself
~You, My Love (Acoustic) - Tyler Hilton

Wake up kids
We've got the dreamers disease
Age 14 we got you down on your knees
So polite, you're busy still saying please
Fri - enemies, who when you're down ain't your friend
Every night we smash their Mercedes - Benz
First we run and then we laugh till we cry
But when the night is falling
And you cannot find the light
If you feel your dream is dying
Hold tight
You've got the music in you
~You Get What You Give - New Radicals

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Date: 2011-08-25 07:49 Subject: 11 Security: Public

[Private to Logan]
Maybe this is too early...but there's something that I want to talk to you about.

Where do you see things going with us? Is there an 'us' or would you prefer to just be friends? I know that this seems a bit random but I just want things to be cleared up so I'm not hoping for something that isn't there.

Was the other day just a one time thing?
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